Sunday, November 20
Comfortably NumbUnless you've experienced the worst, you won't be able to recognise a good thing when it hits you
By failing to value me the way i deserved, my ex unknowingly taught me my value. We cannot appreciate our best gift until we've hit our bottom.
By causing me pain, he threw me into the arms of the things and people in my life that did deserve my love - the ones i should have been loving more all along.
For that i am grateful.
Thursday, May 5
Monday, April 25
Thursday, April 7
Getting Out Of Bed
There's this inexplicable sadness, you feel it in the joints in between your bones when you wake up in the morning. It feels heavy to the point where just staying in bed almost makes sense, until you have the crushing realisation that they are not with you and probably never will be and then its your head that feels the heaviest, aching with memories you've tried so hard to push back like how your name seemed to sound better coming out of their mouth than any other and the way you hitched a ride on the vibrations of there laughter to dimensions of happiness you never thought you could reach.
You wonder if one day they'll question how it could be possible that your thunderstorm of relationship became this slow drizzle, a mere shadow of what it once was.
You can't tell anyone this though.
You already know you'll just be chastised for not being able to forget their flaws, passions and all of the other little pieces of themselves they removed their mask to show you.
So instead, you lift up your leaden body and proceed to carry through the motions of your day.
Somewhere deep inside you ask your ears for forgiveness as you turn the volume up on your headphones, with your heart treating the inside of your chest like a makeshift trampoline every time you get a phone call because you've been dying to hear your favourite song, the one that came out of their throat.
You tell yourself that this is for the best, that maybe your souls just weren't meant to intertwine at this moment in time.
It's the only way to continue getting up.
Tuesday, June 18
Nothing but Regret
Please believe me when i say you'll always be with me.
Time didn't heal the pain, the torment inside is almost too much to bear
But my only ever wish will be to have seen your beautiful face
I've an image of you in my mind, something i'll never let go
This love i have for you, i'll never be able to show
If we meet again, i'll never say goodbye
Wherever you may be
Sunday, April 21
Always be my baby
the only thing i ask of you is to hold him when i'm not around
A hundred days have made me older, Since the last time that i saw your pretty face
But all the miles that separates, Disappear now when i'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby, but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby, and i dream about you all the time
Everything i know, and anywhere i go, it gets hard but it won't take away my love
I'm here without you, but you'll always be on my mind
Can't help but think of all the times i've had with you
Now, pictures and memories will have to help me through
Wednesday, December 26
In too deep, Can't think about giving up